Food in my stomach

I hate love food 

亻外不祥

The following 2 weeks are those, where I have to write my finals and I'm already stressed out like fuck! 

Besides being really busy I often feel so lonely. Right now in bed I just hate everyone I know and don't want to have any kind of contact anymore. But on the other hand I would really to have a few people around me who understand! 

Or at least who make you forget for a little time. But both are at least 2 hours of a bus drive away... So I will have to wait 2 weeks... It's just two weeks right? 

Instagram & pride

I created an Instagram account to photograph the food I'm eating and to motivate myself to stick to the HCLF-lifestyle. 

My name: highcarb_fitness 

Pride. It's like poison. 

It may change the way you think or act. 

I have been thinking about it a lot lately. 

The end of a very good friendships starts  to bother me after 4 months.

There was lots of criticism on me because of giving up a friendship so easily in the past couple of days and now where I can see clearly again I'm thinking:  maybe I was just too proud to understand? I don't know I really don't now... 

But after seeing Christina & Meredith hugging each other after a rough day on greys anatomy I had that feeling for the first time... Pain. 

Happy New Year

Short Update: 

Ate way too much in the holidays and gained weight but it's ok, because I had the possibility to discover what I actually did wrong. 

So the things I changed: 

1. I eat every 5 hours 

2. I drink more water (again) 

3. I eat highcarb and mostly vegan 

4. I have quite big portions but not as big as on rawtill4 (2500+ cals are obviously not made for my body)

5. I am working out again...

Of course there are days which are not as they were supposed to be (e.g. On Sunday I had a huge brunch, dinner, big size popcorn at the cinema and midnight-food) but this is a journey and as long as I get better and stronger every day it's going to turn out for good :)