Bliss

There have been a couple of experiences in the last few days, which made me really think of life and how blessed we actually are. 

Probably one of the biggest gifts is HEALTH! Just think of when you have the flu: you're unable to do anything but sleep, nose is running and so on. And now think of the people, who have serious illnesses. Like cancer or leukaemia. How they must feel. How this feeling must be, to know that you could die every minute. 

Or what about PEACE? Or having a FAMILY? Or what about having a BED and a roof over your head? 

We take so many things for granted and  sometimes we focuse on unnecessary things like wearing the latest trends or having the coolest car. But how about stopping, breathing and realising what you have and how BLESSED you actually are. Even if it is the tiniest thing. Just the fact that you are alive is wonderful.

In this world it's so easy to forget to be thankful. And little reminders really help to get this awareness back and have a much more positive view on obstacles and life itself. 

My knee hurts :(

Good evening everyone!

6 days left until I fly back to Germany... 

This is so crazy. When did 1 month pass? That's really confusing. 

But I'm not sure if I want to go back tbh. On one hand I am realy looking forward to it, because I missed my bed, the environment, the grocery stores and in general the life there. 

On the other hand I'll miss my relatives, my granny and just the beauty and energy of istanbul. But either way I have only 6 days left and I'm gonna enjoy them as much as possible :) 

I'm still continuing the starch solution way of eating but I really really miss the abundance of fresh food. Like I'm literally craving it. I'm possibly gonna spend a lot of money when I arrive back home for all this fresh, juicy goodness. 

Anyways this is what I ate today: 

BF: sweet rice with agave (and carob) and a banana/Apple/coconut milk smoothie (I had this "breakfast" at 1 pm 0-0) 

D: therefore I skipped lunch and had 2 plates full of bulgur and beans 

As I mentioned earlier I'm falling back in love with working out again... 

I had amazing 60 min of training today: 15 min ballet beautiful, 30 min HIIT, 15 min yoga 

It was so great but my knee hurts a lot :( 

I made an ice-pack and I'm hoping that this is going to help me. 

I'll just start reading ballet beautiful now. I finished "Skinny Bitch" yesterday and it was really interesting to read all those facts about health and veganism. I can definetly recommend it! :) 

Have a nice evening 

xxx 

Where is all the fruit gone

Hi chickas 💛

It's been 24 hours since my arrival back in Istanbul again after our 3 day roadtrip, which has been great and exhausting at the same time :D 

We have been to many places, but all of them had one thing in common: the amazing sea! (And wind haha) 

We've even been to Troja, where I made such an ambarrassing experience.. There were Chinese tourist and I wanted to speak to them but as soon as she started talking I got a blackout and I couldn't respond to anything -.- but it  was great anyway. 

Eating-wise I had loads of trouble. All the breadery, on the go kind of food really challenged my body and digestion. In those 3 days my skin got really really bad, my digestion is going crazy and I am literally craving soups, veggies and fruit as if I haven't eaten them for years... 

Unfortunately we didn't have any fruits here but this day was still thousand times better than the other days... 

0,5 cups of oats (dry) with agave lemon and dates 

0,5 cups of brown rice and lentils (dry) salad and cauliflower with carrots (I actually had the double size of veggies 😅🙉) 

And veggie soup of course :D 

As dessert I had helva which is a turkish delicacy and yeah that's pretty much everything.

And I even managed to do some sports today... It was kind of an spontaneous decision and I'm really impressed on those positive feelings you get afterwards. I might be a little dumb because even though I know how happy working out makes me, I still find excuses. I really shoul stop listening to my old self and embrace my inner sportaholic. Because it's always great to feel fit, fresh and STRONG 

GOOD NIGHT XXX

Starchsolution Day 1

Heyaaa 

I just had my first starch solution kind of day and it was ok... I didn't do any sports due to my lack of sleep :/ 

This is a quick overview of what I ate... I have to say that the breakfast was the only meal I cooked myself... The rest was always with my family. Right now I have a weird burning in my stomach and I'm sure that it's food related but o can't tell what I did wrong... Maybe my aunt used too much oil when she cooked the foods? Idk. I will still continue this experiment until I'm back in Germany but I think rt4 fits me more. Especially when the weather gets warmer. But I think I think it's way too early to come to conclusions now. 

Gotta sleep now. Will be heading to a road trip tomorrow (until Friday or Saturday) 

Good night y'all x3

Give a shit on what others think

Hey lovelies 

I'm back at our summer house again (I had a few sleepovers) but I have to admit that I really feel crappy.

My energy levels are still very low and I just hate the fact that this all leads to a vicious cycle: tired > no excercise > more time to eat crappy food > damaging your body > feeling worse and even more tired 

And the thing is, that no matter how much I increase my sleep, I'm still tired!!!

Additionally I got kinda sick... I'm freezing and my stomach feels so weird all the time.

I really have to do some kind of detox! It's  scary that I fell in this kinda hole, unable to do the things I really enjoy like running, sports, photography, cooking and loads of taking of course. 

I'll just start with kind the starch solution . I brought lots of grains like rice, millet, buckwheat, spelt and quinoa from Germany and I just realised that I was holding myself back from thriving by thinking that cooking for myself is rude. But who cares. I'll be gone in 2 weeks and they all do already think I'm crazy so what :D my Heath is way more important and I already get some serious signals  from my body. 

So I'll start with some gentle excercise tomorrow... Probably not  too cardiovascular. Maybe some walking, yoga and ballet excercises. 

B: brown rice with carob and apple

L: buckwheat with carrots and olives 

D: grain mix with tomato and cucumber 

Dessert: piece of fruit 

#PDOTD: I did a mini workout after getting up and I cleaned my room :) 

Summary

I just wrote a super long post about Istanbul and the circumstances here and how's everything doing and then my phone got into standby mode because I had to do something and now everything is gone -.-

I'll try to write a short summary anyways. 

I have been in istanbul for 3 weeks now and I really miss my family especially my brother. Luckily I'm going to see my mom and dad on Tuesday as soon as their plane arrives :) 

My brother won't be there though due to school... That's why we end up phoning for at least 3 times a week :D 

But i am really enjoying my time here. The weather is sometimes so hot I don't even need a jacket and I'm always on the go.

Having sleepovers every 2-3 days, being outside almost every single day, meeting new people, good weather and bombastic food... 

As beautiful and great this may be, there are some negative points too.

I think this whole being always outside made me kind of weak. Since last week I have very low energy levels, I'm waking up at 11 a.m. (if not later - whereas I was waking up at 6-8 a.m. In the first weeks) 

I have very dark circles under my eyes and I feel a little sluggish. But I think this has to do something with my eating habits too: it's nearly impossible to have vegan food here and I'm kinda shy here when it comes to making my own food.. That's why I mostly eat what the relatives/friends I'm staying at have cooked... But I want to change this. 

Let's have a look at the past few weeks: I gained about 5 kgs (due to the stressful time while writing my seminar paper and having exams) 

In Istanbul I gained just 1 kg but I think my stomach got bigger... I barely work out and eat fattier foods (which I can definetly see on my skin!) 

To sum everything up: I don't feel as fit and healthy and comfortable as I'm supposed to. So how am I gonna change this? I WILL stick to a positive mindset. I won't allow myself to hate my body or myself ever again because I'm simply not that person which this  disorder want s me to believe. 

I'm beautiful, intelligent, friendly, open minded and full of life. I'm breathing and I'm capable of doing amazing things. Whether it's just a smile to cheer someone up. 

I found out that it isn't about "not being the fates in class" anymore... It's about "being the fittest I have ever been" it's about "getting MYSELF into amazing shape for MYSELF". 

And I proud of myself for understanding this. I'm proud of who I am and I'm proud that I'm still willing to fight against this disorder every single day :) 

I have to go now but I'll share my thoughts on how I'm going to change my not so good eating habits these days and how I'll get into beast mode and working out again. 

Have a lovely day you all. 

Go outside and breathe! 

Because you only have one life lovelies! 

S

P.S. I'm thinking of turning completely blonde. My mom already made me dip dye hair before I flew. And now I'm thinking of cutting my hair (it's quite long now but I'd like it to be shoulder long maybe a little shorter) and have some blonde highlights in it :) 

Have you made good experiences with that hairstyle?