I don´t deserve living a happy life.
I don´t deserve to eat anything. ever again.
I don´t deserve to like myself.
and last: I don´t deserve to have friends.
As you guys know, I am one of the fattest persons in this whole universe.
So I decided to fuck off this "pro-healthy" shit and started to do, what I know the best:
I´m pretty sure, that it won´t be that difficult as it seems to me at the moment.
Cause I´ve been spending almost a sixth of my life doing this.
I don´t know when to start exactly, but I think It´ll be in the holdiays.
It´s pretty easy to play the girl without problems to my doctor and as my therapist is on vacation, there won´t be any demanding roles to play at all.
My plan is not to eat more than 900 kcal a day and doing at least 30 min of sports every single day.
I am so tired of being me.
I don´t get it anymore. So if I have to be unhappy to be skinny, I will accept this and try my best to get to my final goal.
XOXO Sofia Ellen